Repentance.

I always hoped to get the chance to do this in person.   This is a letter that I wrote a little while back. 

I am so deeply sorry.  I am sorry for wronging you.  I am sorry that I was looking at things that I shouldn't have during our relationship.   You were all I ever needed.   I am sorry I was having issues that I did not share with you.   I am sorry that I was too embarrassed to tell you about them.  I am sorry that I did not tell you everything in my head.  
I am sorry that you did not get the best of me.  I am sorry I did not know how to love the girl of my dreams as best as I could.  I had never been in true love before and I blew it.  I am sorry that I messed up our life together.  I am sorry that you will not be my wife and the mother of my children.  I am sorry we will not have a wedding. 
I am sorry I did not share every feeling and thought with you.  You could have been my best friend.  
I have never ever imagined loving anyone or anything like this.   I deserve all this pain for not realizing that when it mattered. 
You are the most wonderful woman that I have ever met.  I wish you nothing but happiness and success in the future.  I wish that I was a part of that.   It is my own fault that I am not.  I may never get past that.  
Everything that went wrong with us was my fault.   I did not realize that at the time.  Every fight, every argument was because of me. 
I am sorry I ruined our fairytale.