But it takes two to tango.

I made the mistake of looking at old pictures.   I had the world by the balls.   But this had to happen.   I never would have seen things in this light if I didn't suffer.   I know I could sit here and be mad at the fact that I had suffered so much, and yet still lost touch with the proper perspective.   But I cant change the past.   I fell once again, and now I have to pick myself back up.   Third time is a charm they say.  The rough thing is I am a guy, and I know I could fix it.   That is what us guys do.  We grab the screwdriver and the hammer and fix things.   And in this case, I am one hundred percent sure that I could make all of this right.   But it takes two to tango. 
I still think that I what I desire in my heart is God's plan.  "May He give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed." - Psalm 20:4.   For this I will have to let go and hope and pray for it.   And if it is not, I will trust what is in store for me.  I will continue to wait faithfully.  I will continue to enjoy my new found view on life.  I know that this had to happen, as painful as this is.   I would have been no good to anyone without going through it.  So I will wait.   Holding out for the fairytale :)

If you come and take this journey

If you come and take this journey with me, I promise you will never ever regret it.  

Second Chances.

Today I plagiarize...
 

“Every person has a dark side. What defines a person with good character is not a spotless life of constant kindness, smiles and even temperament. But rather, it’s the yearning to learn from your mistakes, applying it, making amends for them and choosing not to repeat them -  that defines good character. These are the friends to keep in your life because they have stared adversity in the face and became a better person because of it.”
― Shannon L. Alder

 

"People aren’t always what you want them to be. Sometimes they disappoint you or let you down, but you have to give them a chance first. You can’t just meet someone and expect them to be everything you’re looking for and then be angry when they’re not every hope and aspiration you projected onto them. It’s foolish to believe that someone will be what you imagine them to be. And sometimes, when you give them a chance, they turn out to be better than you imagined. Different, but better.”
― Chloe Rattray, Sacré Noir

“The only point in having enemies is so you can defeat them, kill them, brush them aside."
"Or give them a chance to redeem themselves.”
― Derek Landy, Death Bringer

“Whatever problems we had back then don’t exist anymore. It’s why we have this second chance, and we can’t throw it away. Besides, you were the one who said we’re not exactly the same as we were back then. If we’re not the same, then things can turn out differently.”
― Michelle Madow, Remembrance

“It was then that I realized I wasn't afraid to lose my life; I was afraid to lose the life I could have  lived.”
― Amanda Nuri, Emerald Butterfly




"Wishes"  -  SUPERCHICK

The saddest thing is you could be anything
That you could want
We could have been everything
But now we're not
Now it's not anything at all
The hardest part was getting this close to you
And giving up this dream I built with you
A fairytale that isn't coming true
You've got some growing up to do

I wish we could have worked it out
I wish I didn't have these doubts
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I
I wish that i could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye

After all the things you put me through
Tell me why I'm still in love with you
And why am I, why am I still waiting for your call
You broke my heart
I'm taking it back from you
And taking back the life I gave to you
Life goes on before and after you
I've got some growing up to do

I wish we could have worked it out
I wish I didn't have these doubts
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I
I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye

It's time I said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time I said my last goodbye

I wish we could have worked it out
I wish I didn't have these doubts
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I
I wish that i could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye

It's time I said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time I said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time I said my last goodbye