Wednesday, March 27, 2013

I will continue to learn.

Timing is definitely everything in life.   When my relationship ended, I knew that there would be a long recovery period needed.   After all I thought I had found the love of my life.   The girl of my dreams that I would be with forever.   There was never a thought of who could be next, because I thought I was done.  
Of course when you want and need to be alone, it becomes impossible.   When you are looking you will find no one and when you are not someone will appear.   This girl is wonderful.  I can not say one bad thing about her.  But my heart is not ready.   It still belongs to another.   Which is painful to say because I know that not one ounce of your heart belongs to me because you have easily moved on.  Painful irony.
Even more incredible is that I tell this girl the truth.  I am still in love with someone else.   And yet she says she will stand by, convinced that my heart will heal and I will be able to love her.   How is this person so amazing, and why would they be sent to me now?

I know this is all part of the plan.  I will continue to learn.   Maybe this is being done to make me angrier at you which may allow me to let go.