Monday, March 4, 2013

All I wanted was one conversation.

All I wanted was one conversation. 

I know that you probably created more then the truth in your head.  I know some of the people that are in your ear.   You probably have convinced yourself that I was doing more than looking at inappropriate things.   I'm sure you decided there was something physical or emotional there.   Not the truth. 

I could admit everything if I had one chance at a conversation.   Could you reach into your heart and consider forgiving?  Could you reach into your heart and consider the possibility that I have and will continue to work so hard to fix all of this?   I don't think so.   And now there is no way for me to even ask for that conversation ever again. 

Sure I am mad.   Yes its mostly at myself.   But also at the universe.   This is such a shame.   I could fix this and we could be a testimonial to all couples.   I think that from this could grow the deepest, greatest love of all. 

I will continue to wait, faithfully, for you to let me talk.   These other dates are going to need to be cancelled.   Its not fair to anyone when you have my heart.   I just have to wait for God to reach into yours and show you what we can be.  



Less Than Jake - "Rest Of My Life"

This is my all time low
Somehow it feels so familiar
Somehow it seems so familiar
I feel like letting go
And every second that goes by
I'm screaming out for a second try
Said goodbye, to my best friend
Sometimes there's no one left to tell me the truth

It's gonna kill me... The rest of my life
Let me apologize while I'm still alive
I know it's time to face all of my past mistakes
I've got to live with them rest of my life

This is the mess I've made
These are the words I can't erase
This is my life support, shutting down, for the final time
And it twists like a blade
And kills me for the rest of my life

If you won't forgive me
The rest of my life
Let me apologize while I'm still alive
I know it's time to face all of my past mistakes
It's gonna kill me for the rest of my life...