Love is both a feeling and a decision. But is the decision the bigger factor? As you get older, is love the same thing as buying a car? People just seem to be looking for the best fit. Checking off character qualities on a checklist.
I miss the innocence. When I was in high school, I really thought I would marry my high school girlfriend. Young and stupid. But young, innocent and in love. I would have done anything for her and for us. I did do some crazy things. I miss that feeling. Us against the world. Adults telling you that it would never last. And now I am that adult. I cant wait to see that again in my kids.
I read cards and letters. Words stating that we will never be apart. How many cards have I gotten like this from how many girls? Yet none have lasted. I want the card where the words ring true. Where that love conquers all.
As I navigate though love again, I try to figure out whats real. Is this just words again? Words that can be thrown around to anyone and everyone? Or are you a Capulet?
In some ways I have that high school feeling again. It took loss to get it. It took finding faith to get it. But my heart is on fire.
I don't understand how words mean so little these days. But as Face to Face says - "lies and promises and words are said, its your decision to accept them."
