My medical issues were causing me more problems during the past year than I even realized. I thought so much of my stress and anxiety was due to external factors. The sad part is now I realize a lot of my problems were due to things not being as well maintained as I thought they were.
I am very determined now to correct these issues. I wish I knew they were such a problem then. All I can do is more forward and hope that it improves the next chapter of my life. Hindsight is 20/20. I just wish I was more vocal and open about what I was going through in the past. To know that I was so embarrassed about them and handled them by doing disgusting things is so painful.
I have a great game plan for the next few months. So much will be improved. Hopefully after that my most important goal will begin to fall into place.
I'm trying to stay positive in the face of pain. Lord knows I have done it before and came out on top. This time I will be even stronger.
May He give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. - Psalm 20:4
