Keep going and you will have it.

Its tough to deal with something when you know it is all your fault.   I'm loving living everyday more carefully and slowing everything down, hour by hour, bit by bit.   The now is good.   But the past continues to haunt me.   I was not in the right state of mind.  I was living sloppy.   I think about the possibility of getting a due over which is impossible.   But what does make me excited is thinking about the possibilities that lie ahead.   I'm so prepared now for opportunity. 
My horoscope has been scarily accurate lately.  This is today's -

Are you thinking about giving up on an effort that has consumed a fair amount of your time and energy?  If so, that's fine.  Unless, that is, you haven't also given up on wanting it.  If you still want it, then no Moonchild - do not give up.   Here's a little pep rally for you:  you are tenacious, you are smart, you are determined, and you are talented.  Maybe you are a little tired - so go ahead and take a break.  But don't give up for as long as you want what you want.   Keep going and you will have it. 

I will not give up.