Couples Testimony.

When she sat on the couch and asked him everything that he was hiding from her,  at that moment had no idea what she could mean.   When she told him what she had found on his phone, the possibilities ran though his head.   He knew that he had looked at pornography from time to time.   He had commented and shared pictures with total strangers.  But in his head, that could be justified, right?   That wasn't cheating, was it? 

He panicked.   Denied things that were true.   Yes he had a fetish that he never told her about.   The relationship had progressed so quickly and he never brought it up.   And now he felt like it was too late.   After all this time, what if he told her and she couldn't live with that? It wasn't worth the risk.  So he just decided to compartmentalize it.   Keep this little separate part of his life, thinking it wasn't hurting anyone.   But you cant keep anything separate in a relationship.  Everything has to be out in the open, or the relationship will never have a solid foundation.  

The fight escalated, the lies continued, and he let her leave.   The worst decision he could have made.   But at the time, what else was there to do.   He thought, I need to start fresh.   She will never get over this.   Panic.  

Fast forward a few months and she is long gone.   She so quickly had moved on to another relationship.   And this while his heart pulls back toward her.   The days after the breakup, he felt like splitting was the only thing to be done.   Now his heart aches for the love of his life.   He hit rock bottom.   Lying on the floor one night, begging for the pain to stop, it happened. 

Something told him to get up.   Go to church.   A voice told him he needed to align himself with God. 

Chipping away slowly, God began to reveal to him that everything that was going wrong in his relationship and in his life, was his own fault.   And it was all because he was not living the life that God had wanted him to life. 

He realized how cold his heart was.   That it was incapable of the love that she deserved.   That he was chasing demons and little Gods that were keeping him from the full potential of his relationship. God began to show him every fight, every missed opportunity, every wasted hour that was a result of him not living up to his full potential. 

Months go by with no contact.   He continues his walk with God.  Patiently waiting on the Lord.  Praying nightly that God would make them one of his testimonies.   Please Lord reach down and put forgiveness in her heart.  A couple that could speak to other couples about the power of God and how it can make even the most broken relationships more solid.   

And then it happened.   The phone rang.  

10 years and 3 kids later, they speak at their Church community groups to other couples about the power of God and how He can heal relationships and even make them stronger. 

The first part of this story is the truth.   The second part is so far fiction.   But my nightly prayer is that this is one day my true story in its entirety.