Our real discoveries come from chaos.

I continue to analyze my thinking during the past.  I don't want to be in this place again.   I'm reflecting on why I failed.   I know that it wasn't the situation.  I was set up for greatness.   And I got in the way.   But I need to continue to figure out why.   I have learned so much already in my walk with God.  And I know I am already a transformed person.   I need to continue to scrape the cold off of my heart and let it be completely open.
 
I can scream loud to heaven but it does not mean I will get a chance at redemption.   There is a plan.   I will continue to ask but also continue to accept what is in store for me.  

The greatest things come out of tragedy.   This pain will set me up for success.  Success that I will appreciate more than ever before.  

Don't give me what I want until I am ready.   I need to get it right this time.   There is no more room for failure.  

This is chaos.  

“Our real discoveries come from chaos, from going to the place that looks wrong and stupid and foolish.”
Chuck Palahniuk