Asking for healing.

I know that this had to happen God.  I was never going to be the man I am supposed to be without going through this pain.  I know You had to smack me in the face, yet again, to bring me back to the right path.   I know You have put me through struggles before to bring me closer to You.   I know that You will do it again if I stray.   But I know that this time, I will never leave this path again.  I feel such a huge change in my heart.  This is the biggest high I could ever get. 
My anger is gone.  My ego is checked.  My pride has been squashed.  I realize now that the most important thing in the world is love and you should do anything to hold on to it.  You should never take it for granted. 
I will continue to be on my knees every night asking for forgiveness.   Asking to be one of your testimonies.   Asking for healing.   God please let me move on from this and make someone the luckiest woman alive.   Cleanse my heart so I can move on and have the family that you want all of us to have.