I know you will probably never read this. You are a Scorpio through and through. "Scorpio's rarely forgive emotional rejection". I know that's how you see what happened. However things couldn't be further from the truth. All that has happened is because of my own issues. I loved you more than anything in the world then, and I love you more than I love myself now. I hope that one day you can believe in second chances. I hope that one day you can forgive.
Unfortunately the feeling that I have every morning is eerily familiar to me. It had been a while since I felt it, but now it is once again a daily experience. Every morning I come out of a dream world, which whether good or bad, is nowhere near as painful as my reality. I felt this for years after I got sick. Waking up from anywhere in the universe, to a planet where I couldn't even get out of my bed. Life got better and it slowly faded. But I managed to create the nightmare for myself once again.
You told me to stay away. You have moved on. But I have to fight for what I hoped would be my future. 2013 was going to bring marriage. Now it brings emotional turmoil and lack of hope.
If there is any chance that you do actually read this, I know there could be consequences. You will show it to your boyfriend. Hell you already showed him last time I tried to pour my heart out. I don't even care. You know where I live. Send anyone you want. "Fear the man who has nothing left to lose."
The mistakes I made had nothing to do with you. They had everything to do with me. But we were supposed to be best friends. And you were mine. My insides rot knowing that I did not share everything with you. I was insecure. There were things that I thought if I told you that you might leave. The irony is the things that I didn't tell you made you leave. You told me to tell you all my secrets and I didn't. I thought things were wrong with me. I thought I was having issues because of my health. I thought that if I told you things that I liked, you might leave. I just couldn't bare the thought of you leaving. But I lost you because of that fear.
I always thought life was linear. I'm not convinced of that now. A man can not let his past define is future. What happened between us ripped my heart out. It may end up to be the worst moment of my life. However sadly I realize it needed to happen. I was a closed book. I was selfish. All of the fights and issues that we had were because I did not understand true love. I was prideful. I put my ego before us. Now I understand true love completely. I want to be your best friend. I want to tell you everything. I want to completely dedicate my life and my soul to you. What happened between us could make the future stronger than it ever could have been. I know if you knocked on my door I could be the most dedicated friend and husband on the planet. I also know I will most likely never get that chance.
I will be here everyday. This is how I will get through this. I will respect that you do not want to hear from me and that you have moved on with someone else. However if you do this is where I will be. Every day I will talk to you here. And every time my phone makes noise, I will pray that it is you, as I have been.
I love you with all that I am.
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Turn The Record Over
I have decided to move on from this. Thank you to those who have read. I may not have accomplished all of my goals, but getting my thoughts and feelings out on paper (or screen) helped me heal and strengthened my walk with God. I will continue my healing and the building of my faith in private.
May God bless all of you.
GASLIGHT ANTHEM - "45"
Have you seen my hands?
Just look at 'em shake.
And the song just keeps on repeating,
Drop the needle again.
And I dance with your ghost,
Oh, but that ain't the way...
I can't move on and I can't stay the same.
And all my friends say...
"Hey hey, turn the record over.
Hey hey, and I'll see you on the flip side.
There you go, turn the key and engine over.
Let her go, let somebody else lay at her feet."
Have you seen my heart,
Have you seen how it bleeds?
And the nights are so long, baby,
Out here in the deep.
The tick, ticking of hours, lonely.
I hear the alarm
I used to hear when she would sleep in my arms.
But "better sense" says...
"Hey hey, turn the record over.
Hey hey, and I'll see you on the flip side.
There you go, turn the key and engine over.
Let her go, let somebody else lay at her feet."
And all my friends say,
"Hey hey, turn the record over.
Hey hey, and I'll see you on the flip side.
There you go, turn the key and engine over.
Let her go, let somebody else lay at her feet."
May God bless all of you.
GASLIGHT ANTHEM - "45"
Have you seen my hands?
Just look at 'em shake.
And the song just keeps on repeating,
Drop the needle again.
And I dance with your ghost,
Oh, but that ain't the way...
I can't move on and I can't stay the same.
And all my friends say...
"Hey hey, turn the record over.
Hey hey, and I'll see you on the flip side.
There you go, turn the key and engine over.
Let her go, let somebody else lay at her feet."
Have you seen my heart,
Have you seen how it bleeds?
And the nights are so long, baby,
Out here in the deep.
The tick, ticking of hours, lonely.
I hear the alarm
I used to hear when she would sleep in my arms.
But "better sense" says...
"Hey hey, turn the record over.
Hey hey, and I'll see you on the flip side.
There you go, turn the key and engine over.
Let her go, let somebody else lay at her feet."
And all my friends say,
"Hey hey, turn the record over.
Hey hey, and I'll see you on the flip side.
There you go, turn the key and engine over.
Let her go, let somebody else lay at her feet."
Monday, September 9, 2013
Slow and subtle shaping
Cancer horoscope for Sep, 09, 2013 (The DailyHoroscope by Comitic)
You don't have to make a permanent change right now to be happy. You don't have to make a major decision. You don't have to start from scratch and revise everything. All you have to do is to shift gears or to adjust what you are already doing if you need more peace and harmony in your life, Moonchild. Although there is much that needs to change for you to find the perfect level of synergy with the world around you, you can make those changes over time. It can't happen - and it doesn't need to happen - overnight. Make peace with the idea of slow and subtle shaping of the future, and you will find the future you yearn for.
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Saturday, August 31, 2013
Didn't come through for you.
Cancer horoscope for Aug, 31, 2013 (The DailyHoroscope by Comitic)
Someone did not do something they promised to do. Someone didn't come through for you. Someone turned out not to be what you thought he or she was. This is a disappointment - yes it is, Moonchild. But it is not the end of the world. If you allow yourself to be driven by resentment over this, you will pour all of your good energy into a negative pursuit. Feeling resentful will not accomplish anything. Neither will feeling sorry for yourself. The only way to move forward is to - move forward! Leave the past behind, and move forward to a beautiful new beginning.
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Monday, August 19, 2013
Simplicity
Cancer horoscope for Aug, 19, 2013 (The DailyHoroscope by Comitic)
Let simplicity rule your life today, Moonchild. You may be feeling stressed - but at least some of that stress may be coming from the pressure you put on yourself. You may be coming up with complicated solutions to easy problems. You may be getting too entangled in arguments or volatile conversations with friends or co-workers. You may be putting too much weight on certain decisions that you now face. But simplicity is really the key to feeling better and to being healthier in mind, body, and spirit.
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Friday, August 16, 2013
Restricted
Cancer horoscope for Aug, 16, 2013 (The DailyHoroscope by Comitic)
You may be feeling self-conscious about a goal. And in your fear of being too conspicuous or of failing, you have limited yourself and your choices. But if you are working toward your goal with restricted resources, then you aren't getting the full benefit of what the universe is now offering you. And while you may have success anyway, it won't be as enjoyable, and it won't be as big and as exciting as it could be. Don't force yourself to fit a mold or someone else's idea of success. Don't take roadblocks to your success seriously - knock them down. You are capable of so much, Moonchild. Do not limit yourself!
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Thursday, August 15, 2013
Timing was wrong
Cancer horoscope for Aug, 15, 2013
Some goal you reached for quite some time ago did not manifest, despite your impressive efforts. You may think of this quest as an abysmal failure, Moonchild, but that is the wrong way to look at it. You may think that since you poured your time, talent, and passion into this pursuit that you just weren't good enough and therefore you weren't up to the challenge - but that is rubbish! The timing was wrong, and that's really all there was to it. If you can summon up some faith in yourself - the faith you deserve - and you try again, you will have a real shot at success. Believe in yourself!
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Saturday, August 10, 2013
Rock bottom.
A great testimony...
Tammy grew up in a Christian home. Both her parents and grandparents knew the Lord. In her early 20s, after her dear grandmother had passed away, Tammy's faith was shaken. Later, when her marriage eroded and turmoil gave way to divorce, Tammy's world seemed to collapse. Finally she hit rock bottom, but then there was nowhere else to look but up—to Jesus her Savior.
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But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. (NIV)As I openly share my testimony, I pray those who are struggling in their daily lives will find peace and comfort. I also hope my testimony will bring inspiration and hope to anyone who has slipped away from our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
I could not understand why the Lord had taken her from me. She was my inspiration and we were very close. I realized later that she was afraid to be put in a nursing home and preferred to go home to be with the Lord. I was told as she was going to sleep she looked up and smiled as if she were seeing Jesus, and then died peacefully in her sleep. Throughout my 20s and 30s, I fell deep in sin, blaming God for taking my Grandma, and for all the curve balls thrown my way. My God never turned his back on me and I knew he was watching over me. I felt his presence especially when I would go to church (although, I only went for my parents' sake). God was tapping on my shoulder during every service, making it very hard for me to sit through the invitations, for I knew I had betrayed him. I could hear my Grandma singing next to me, "I Surrender All," and "Come Home, Come Home." Eventually I stopped going to church other than on Christmas, Easter, Mother's Day, and Father's Day so I would not feel so pressured and emotional. I still was not able to accept why the Lord had taken my Grandma.
I would ask, "Why, Lord, Why? This cannot be happening. I am an only child and I owe my parents the privilege of being grandparents." My husband and I grew more and more distant until he sought love elsewhere. Shortly thereafter, our marriage ended in divorce.
For several years, I became totally rotten and hurt my parents. I continued drinking and hanging out in bars and clubs. My parents and grandfather continued to pray for me through all my struggles. I finally realized when I hit rock bottom that God had not turned his back on me; it was I that had walked away from him. God was there all the time, patiently waiting on my return.
In 2010, my husband and I joined Maple Hill Baptist Church in Ardmore, Alabama, and have committed our marriage and ourselves to the Lord. I realized that I had "head knowledge," meaning I could quote Scripture, but I didn't have "heart knowledge," which would allow me to believe and apply the Scriptures to my life.
By seeking God first, and putting him first, he has truly blessed my marriage and filled my void with unconditional love. I realize now it was not God's plan for me to have children in my first marriage, but I don't know why I was not allowed to have children at all. That will be a question (along with many others) to ask him when I get to heaven. However, the Lord has blessed me with two beautiful step-children and a grand baby on the way. God's love and grace is truly amazing. Remember, God has a special purpose for everything that happens in our lives. I believe if we knew the answers beforehand, we would not be able to handle it. God has a plan for each of us. No matter what you have done, where you have been, what you are going through, Jesus cares. He loves, forgives, and most importantly, he saves.
Tammy grew up in a Christian home. Both her parents and grandparents knew the Lord. In her early 20s, after her dear grandmother had passed away, Tammy's faith was shaken. Later, when her marriage eroded and turmoil gave way to divorce, Tammy's world seemed to collapse. Finally she hit rock bottom, but then there was nowhere else to look but up—to Jesus her Savior.
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Tammy's Rock Bottom
Matthew 6:33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. (NIV)As I openly share my testimony, I pray those who are struggling in their daily lives will find peace and comfort. I also hope my testimony will bring inspiration and hope to anyone who has slipped away from our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
Growing Up in a Christian Home
I want to express my appreciation to my parents and grandparents for taking me to church when I was a child. I grew up in a Christian home, both parents and grandparents are saved by God's wonderful grace (my grandfather was a Baptist preacher). I was saved and baptized when I was 10 years old at Calvary Baptist Church in Center Point, Alabama. My parents provided me with the utmost Christian atmosphere at home and also allowed me to attend a Christian school. They have always been a wonderful influence in my life. When I was 15, I attended a revival with Brother Tim Riley, also at Calvary. Brother Riley preached a "Hell-Fire and Brimstone" message. That night, I gave my heart to Jesus once again, to clear all doubts. I wanted to make sure I had a clear understanding of what it truly meant to be saved. I was also re-baptized.Slipping Away
In my early 20s, I had begun slipping away from my heavenly Father. My grandmother had fallen and broken her hip and was placed in a rehabilitation clinic. She passed away and was never brought home.I could not understand why the Lord had taken her from me. She was my inspiration and we were very close. I realized later that she was afraid to be put in a nursing home and preferred to go home to be with the Lord. I was told as she was going to sleep she looked up and smiled as if she were seeing Jesus, and then died peacefully in her sleep. Throughout my 20s and 30s, I fell deep in sin, blaming God for taking my Grandma, and for all the curve balls thrown my way. My God never turned his back on me and I knew he was watching over me. I felt his presence especially when I would go to church (although, I only went for my parents' sake). God was tapping on my shoulder during every service, making it very hard for me to sit through the invitations, for I knew I had betrayed him. I could hear my Grandma singing next to me, "I Surrender All," and "Come Home, Come Home." Eventually I stopped going to church other than on Christmas, Easter, Mother's Day, and Father's Day so I would not feel so pressured and emotional. I still was not able to accept why the Lord had taken my Grandma.
Times of Turmoil
When I turned 30, I married a man who loved to party and have a good time. However, God was not the center of his world or mine at the time. The marriage was good in the beginning, but turned to complete turmoil. We thought about having children, we tried to conceive, but it never happened. We tried and tried to have children until it became more of a chore than an intimate experience. Then we went through the silent "blame," wondering who was at fault ... is it him, is it me? Why won't God let us have a child? After all, so many people in the world have unwanted babies. Teenagers have babies and give them up for adoption ...I would ask, "Why, Lord, Why? This cannot be happening. I am an only child and I owe my parents the privilege of being grandparents." My husband and I grew more and more distant until he sought love elsewhere. Shortly thereafter, our marriage ended in divorce.
Hitting Rock Bottom
I was filled with dismay. I was ashamed, embarrassed, and felt as though my world had collapsed. I thought I was a complete failure. Sadly, I blamed my heavenly Father. I began drinking more and more to fill the void. The hardest thing I have ever had to do was to call my grandfather and tell him my marriage had ended. My grandfather gave me comfort by quoting Scripture and telling me everything would be all right and that he loved me so much.For several years, I became totally rotten and hurt my parents. I continued drinking and hanging out in bars and clubs. My parents and grandfather continued to pray for me through all my struggles. I finally realized when I hit rock bottom that God had not turned his back on me; it was I that had walked away from him. God was there all the time, patiently waiting on my return.
One Day at a Time
By this point in my life, I was done with dating, and just lived one day at a time hanging out with friends. One day, an old friend called me out of the blue and said she had tickets to a Kenny Chesney concert. She asked if I would like to join her. I had a great evening of fun with her and her boyfriend in Birmingham, Alabama at the concert. Little to my knowledge, her boyfriend had asked a co-worker to come over to their house after the concert to meet me. Guess what? God works in mysterious ways. That co-worker is now my husband.In 2010, my husband and I joined Maple Hill Baptist Church in Ardmore, Alabama, and have committed our marriage and ourselves to the Lord. I realized that I had "head knowledge," meaning I could quote Scripture, but I didn't have "heart knowledge," which would allow me to believe and apply the Scriptures to my life.
Seeking God First
Praise the Lord for allowing me to go through all the rough times in order to finally have peace and understanding. God has never left me or forsaken me. Rather, he has a plan for me. He always has.By seeking God first, and putting him first, he has truly blessed my marriage and filled my void with unconditional love. I realize now it was not God's plan for me to have children in my first marriage, but I don't know why I was not allowed to have children at all. That will be a question (along with many others) to ask him when I get to heaven. However, the Lord has blessed me with two beautiful step-children and a grand baby on the way. God's love and grace is truly amazing. Remember, God has a special purpose for everything that happens in our lives. I believe if we knew the answers beforehand, we would not be able to handle it. God has a plan for each of us. No matter what you have done, where you have been, what you are going through, Jesus cares. He loves, forgives, and most importantly, he saves.
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Over-analyzing
Cancer horoscope for Aug, 08, 2013 (The DailyHoroscope by Comitic)
You are facing a challenge. Given your penchant for analyzing (or perhaps over-analyzing at times) you may be trying to come up with a rather complex strategy to deal with the situation. But this is not a complex problem, Moonchild. You could, though, make it more complicated if you want to. But you don't want to, do you? If you can take the situation less seriously, you will relax enough to realize that a simple answer is all you really need. It will come to you when you stop worrying.
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Saturday, August 3, 2013
Strife and unhappiness
Cancer horoscope for Aug, 03, 2013
Some people will argue even if you approach them with peace in your heart. Some people will find something to complain about even if you do your absolute best and make everything as perfect as possible. Some people will choose strife and unhappiness over harmony and happiness every time. And that's because some people just love to be a source of conflict. You have put your heart into some endeavor, but you may face one of those unsatisfied people described above. Don't take it personally, Moonchild. Consider the source, and do your best anyway. It will be recognized by the right person in time.
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Friday, August 2, 2013
can I live again
Sam
Cahill: I dunno who said "only the dead have seen the end of war". I
have seen the end of war. The question is, can I live again? - BROTHERS (2009)
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
We feel shame and so we hide it.
from Ilovethechurch.com
The transparency of trust
It’s common sense to know the person who hides things or keeps things close, the person who seems allusive, leaves him or herself open to suspicion. While the person who is honest and has nothing to hide–you feel like you can trust that person.
Transparency simply means you can see through something.
When a person is transparent they are not trying to hide anything. There is no second-guessing. There is little room for doubt. You know where you stand with them. There is no hidden agenda. There is an upfront honesty and a willingness to engage in conversation. There is an openness about the person.
That is why transparency builds trust.
Interestingly, something that is transparent becomes even more transparent, when light shines on it.
John 3:19, 20 “…Light has come into the world…everyone who does evil hates the light…(because of the) fear that their deeds will be exposed.”
Nobody wants to be exposed. People feel condemned and so keep things hidden. This is true not only of sin, but also of simple mistakes and the areas in our life where we fall short. We feel shame and so we hide it.
John 3:17-18 clearly says Jesus doesn’t condemn us, He forgives us, there is grace for us. So we shouldn’t fear being honest and transparent before God.
When we let God’s light shine on our lives, living honestly before Him, it’s easy to live this same way before people. This develops trust with both God and people
Transparency simply means you can see through something.
When a person is transparent they are not trying to hide anything. There is no second-guessing. There is little room for doubt. You know where you stand with them. There is no hidden agenda. There is an upfront honesty and a willingness to engage in conversation. There is an openness about the person.
That is why transparency builds trust.
Interestingly, something that is transparent becomes even more transparent, when light shines on it.
John 3:19, 20 “…Light has come into the world…everyone who does evil hates the light…(because of the) fear that their deeds will be exposed.”
Nobody wants to be exposed. People feel condemned and so keep things hidden. This is true not only of sin, but also of simple mistakes and the areas in our life where we fall short. We feel shame and so we hide it.
John 3:17-18 clearly says Jesus doesn’t condemn us, He forgives us, there is grace for us. So we shouldn’t fear being honest and transparent before God.
When we let God’s light shine on our lives, living honestly before Him, it’s easy to live this same way before people. This develops trust with both God and people
Monday, July 29, 2013
Return To Innocence
"Return To Innocence" ENIGMA
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
Don't care what people say
Follow just your own way
Don't give up, don't give up
To return, to return to innocence.
If you want then laugh
If you must then cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
Don't care what people say
Follow just your own way
Don't give up, don't give up
To return, to return to innocence.
If you want then laugh
If you must then cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.
Sunday, July 28, 2013
what your own hands have destroyed
Becoming innocent again
In Matthew 18:2, Jesus says this:
How do you go back and recapture your innocence? How do you unsee everything wrong or immoral you’ve ever laid eyes on — everything you were never supposed to see but couldn’t avoid, everything you weren’t supposed to go looking for but did? How do you undo everything wrong your hands have ever done? How do you rebuild what your own hands have destroyed — trust, love, friendship, respect? How do you begin to recapture the angry or bitter words flung through the air at someone else?
It’s simple. You can’t.
You can’t unsee those sights and you can’t rebuilt what you destroyed and you can’t catch the words you said but later regretted. You just can’t. That time has long past. You had your chance not to do those things, but you chose to, whether in a moment of stress or boredom or anger, and things can never be the way they were again.
So how do you become innocent again?
Through the blood of the Savior. He has cleansed away each spot and stain, all the filth you’ve insisted on dragging yourself through — it all comes clean in His blood. He gave His life in the once-for-all, perfect sacrifice that makes up for everything you should have given God but never have. Now when you trust in Him, He gives you your innocence back. You are a new-born soul in Him, when you’re baptized — when you trust in His promises to you. Through faith in Him, you become holy, righteous, and pure in His sight — everything you could never be on your own in God’s sight, Jesus gives you.
All your sins were laid on the spotless Lamb of God, and He was horribly slaughtered and punished in your place. In the Old Testament, God commanded His people to perform a ritual that emphasized the removal of sin. Aaron the High Priest was to take two goats. One was to be slaughtered in the usual way; the other goat’s head Aaron laid his hands on and confessed all of Israel’s wickedness and rebellion over it. He placed all of Israel’s sins on that goat, and then the goat was released into the desert. (lev 16.20-22; heb 13.11-14) That’s how you get your innocence back: by the reality that is found in Christ Jesus that that picture conveyed. By faith, place your hand on the head of the scapegoat, resting it right above His eyes as He looks at you — then lift your hand away and watch as He is led out to be crucified in your place. As He goes outside the city, bearing the disgrace that was not His disgrace, but which He willingly assumed for your sake. That awful death, full of injustice and suffering, becomes the means by which your innocence — and that of the whole world — is restored. By faith in the Son of God, you are clothed in His righteousness; you are His child and a dearly loved heir of heaven. Believe it, and it’s true. It was for you. He died for you.
Jesus promises that Himself. His promises, centered in His life, death, rising, and reigning, are stronger than anything in heaven and earth — stronger than your sin, stronger than the consequences, stronger than your flesh, stronger than death itself.
You can be innocent again.
“If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!” (II cor 5.17)
I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.But how do you do that?
How do you go back and recapture your innocence? How do you unsee everything wrong or immoral you’ve ever laid eyes on — everything you were never supposed to see but couldn’t avoid, everything you weren’t supposed to go looking for but did? How do you undo everything wrong your hands have ever done? How do you rebuild what your own hands have destroyed — trust, love, friendship, respect? How do you begin to recapture the angry or bitter words flung through the air at someone else?
It’s simple. You can’t.
You can’t unsee those sights and you can’t rebuilt what you destroyed and you can’t catch the words you said but later regretted. You just can’t. That time has long past. You had your chance not to do those things, but you chose to, whether in a moment of stress or boredom or anger, and things can never be the way they were again.
So how do you become innocent again?
Through the blood of the Savior. He has cleansed away each spot and stain, all the filth you’ve insisted on dragging yourself through — it all comes clean in His blood. He gave His life in the once-for-all, perfect sacrifice that makes up for everything you should have given God but never have. Now when you trust in Him, He gives you your innocence back. You are a new-born soul in Him, when you’re baptized — when you trust in His promises to you. Through faith in Him, you become holy, righteous, and pure in His sight — everything you could never be on your own in God’s sight, Jesus gives you.
All your sins were laid on the spotless Lamb of God, and He was horribly slaughtered and punished in your place. In the Old Testament, God commanded His people to perform a ritual that emphasized the removal of sin. Aaron the High Priest was to take two goats. One was to be slaughtered in the usual way; the other goat’s head Aaron laid his hands on and confessed all of Israel’s wickedness and rebellion over it. He placed all of Israel’s sins on that goat, and then the goat was released into the desert. (lev 16.20-22; heb 13.11-14) That’s how you get your innocence back: by the reality that is found in Christ Jesus that that picture conveyed. By faith, place your hand on the head of the scapegoat, resting it right above His eyes as He looks at you — then lift your hand away and watch as He is led out to be crucified in your place. As He goes outside the city, bearing the disgrace that was not His disgrace, but which He willingly assumed for your sake. That awful death, full of injustice and suffering, becomes the means by which your innocence — and that of the whole world — is restored. By faith in the Son of God, you are clothed in His righteousness; you are His child and a dearly loved heir of heaven. Believe it, and it’s true. It was for you. He died for you.
Jesus promises that Himself. His promises, centered in His life, death, rising, and reigning, are stronger than anything in heaven and earth — stronger than your sin, stronger than the consequences, stronger than your flesh, stronger than death itself.
You can be innocent again.
“If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!” (II cor 5.17)
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Monday, July 22, 2013
something wrong with your plan
Cancer horoscope for Jul, 22, 2013 (The
Cancer horoscope for Jul, 22, 2013
If things haven't gone according to plan for you lately, Moonchild, perhaps it's because there was something wrong with your plan. Despite your efforts and the great thought that went into it and the time you spent working on it, your plan may have been short-sighted. And that may be because someone else was obstructing your view of how things could be. Don't be afraid to dream big. Don't be afraid to reach for the highest star. You are quite powerful now, and you have a good chance of getting what you want if you aren't afraid to try.
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Friday, July 19, 2013
Change it now.
Cancer horoscope for Jul, 19, 2013 (The DailyHoroscope by Comitic)
You may think that if you could only travel back into the past, you could figure out what went wrong with a certain relationship. You could relive the happy times, and you could study the times that weren't so happy. You might choose to focus on a particular day when you think things might have gone wrong. You may get your wish, Moonchild. You are a nostalgic person, and this week may offer you the opportunity connect to a past event through your sense of nostalgia. Accept an offer to review to something you wish you could change. You may be able to change it now.
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Thursday, July 18, 2013
so much to do, and so little time
Cancer horoscope for Jul, 18, 2013 (The
Cancer horoscope for Jul, 18, 2013
You have been running at the speed of light lately, Moonchild - or at least it probably feels that way. You have so much to do, and so little time to do it in. But that is all about to change. Not because you will be blocked from completing certain obligations, but because those obligations - or at least some of them - will complete themselves or become unnecessary. A windfall is on its way to you. It may come in the form of money, but it might also be assistance of some kind. Accept it with gratitude and joy.
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Wednesday, July 17, 2013
To your benefit
Cancer horoscope for Jul, 17, 2013 (The DailyHoroscope by Comitic)
You may find yourself cursing a delay or an obstacle that is keeping you from fulfilling a plan. This is not the way you thought it would be. You had imagined smooth sailing and imminent success. And you will have that, Moonchild. But right now any delays or obstacles are only there to set things up for perfection. Timing is everything, and the problems you are facing are actually to your benefit. Don't get aggravated. Don't get worried. Just do your best and trust the process.
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Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Olive branch
Scorpio horoscope for Jul, 16, 2013 (The DailyHoroscope by Comitic)
It is one thing to be forgiving, it is another thing entirely to be foolishly trusting. You have the urge to extend the olive branch to someone who has wronged you. That's a noble and right thing to do. But don't confuse forgiveness with starting fresh. A certain person has not earned your trust back yet, even though you are ready to forgive. This individual may have issues that have nothing to do with you. And until that person works those issues out, then he or she may keep on repeating the same offenses. Let it go and move on, but protect yourself too.
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