I want to be living these words.

I'm getting tired of writing words on paper.  I want actions.  I want to be living these words.  I am ready.   Maybe God feels I am not.   I am like a little kid right now.   I want what I want because I want it.   I know I need a plan B.  A plan C and probably a plan D.  
Should I reach out?  I know I cant.   Time is being wasted and there is nothing that I can do.   I stay focused and determined but nervous it will be all for nothing.   Will that be another disappointment I cant handle?
I know I have to let go, let God.   That is the only answer to the situation that has been created. 
I am ready to make the biggest boldest moves that I have ever made.   But will I get the chance?