Love is not just a feeling but more importantly a decision. The second part is where I failed. You must wholeheartedly decide to love someone for it to work. Every minute of every day. One can not waiver.
I am a tortured soul. With a second chance I could fix everything. I know if I could be forgiven it would be perfect. Is it not meant to be? I am not patient enough to find out.
I don't trust myself anymore. Why would I make the decisions that I did if it would result in me feeling this way? How am I ever to trust my own instincts again?
This is madness. This is my first broken heart. I have no idea how people survive this. I can not even see the light at the end of this dark tunnel.
If only you would come back, I would love you so purely.
