medical issues

I am beginning the battery of tests to combat my current embarrassing medical issues.  This is an important but scary time.   But I look forward to a resolution. 
I wish that I was honest about these issues with my past partner.   If I was, everything would be different.  I wouldn't have been doing the things that I were doing to try and figure out these issues on my own.   Because in the end, this is what killed us. 
I pray to God for a resolution, so I can have the future that I desire. 

Being intentional in relationships.

From the blog of Mark Driscoll....

 

1. A Definition of Intentional

“Intentional” is one of those words that sounds right, but no one really knows what it means. So I would like to clear that up. Here is my working definition for intentional and how it relates to how a Christian man should pursue a woman.
The intentional man repeatedly and constantly goes first and takes on all of the risk of rejection. He always lets the girl know where he stands so she feels secure and isn’t left guessing. (On the other hand, don’t weird her out by talking about marriage on the first date.)
Approaching her initially:

• Intentional: “I’d like to take you out on a date.”
• Unintentional: “Wanna hang out sometime? My roommates are all gone this weekend.”

Paying the bill:

• Intentional: “I’ve got it.”
• Unintentional: “Can you cover half the bill? I’m pretty broke right now.” (My wife believes this communicates, “You are worth about $20, but not quite $40.”)

Following up after a date:

• Intentional: “I had a great time tonight, and would definitely want to do this again. I will give you a call this week.”
• Unintentional: “I’ll call you sometime.”

Bringing other people in:

• Intentional: “I’ve really enjoyed getting to know you. Would you like to have dinner with my Community Group leader and his wife?” (This is a way to honor her by pursuing outside accountability from a godly couple.)

• Unintentional: “I don’t know if you really wanna meet my friends yet . . .” I.e. “I don’t really want you to meet my friends yet,” and as Chris Rock says, “If you have not met his friends, you are not his girlfriend.” (In this case, there’s a disingenuousness where he’s not being fully open with his whole life with the woman and is cordoning off the relationship from other areas of his life and people who know him. This is a guy who’s only selfishly protecting himself and shielding himself from any accountability and consequences, and he cannot be trusted as the protector of someone else.)

Things are going well:

• Intentional: “I think you are a godly, beautiful woman, and I have great time with you. I would like to pursue a relationship with you.”
• Unintentional: “Soooooo, what do you think about us?” Or, “I am not sure where I stand. What about you?”

Things look like they could go well for a long time:

• Intentional: “I don’t date for the sake of dating, and marriage is a long ways away, but I couldn’t be happier with how things are going. I think you’re amazing.”
• Unintentional: “Things are going OK I guess, we’ll see.”

Recognizing the end of the relationship:

• Intentional: “I am sorry, I don’t see this progressing past friendship.”
• Unintentional: (Time passing . . . cold shoulder . . . you stop calling . . .)

Ultimately, the unintentional guy’s responses are selfish because they put his interests before the woman’s, and they’re moreover cowardly because he avoids addressing where the relationship is, leaving the woman marooned in relationship limbo.
The man in the relationship should always have an answer for three questions:

1. What is this relationship?

2. What are your intentions?

3. How are you demonstrating those intentions right now?

The big idea is this, men: Don’t keep her guessing. Let her know exactly where you are at all of the time. It is a risk of course, but better on you than her. Own it.

love is the one thing

CITY SLICKERS

Curly: Do you know what the secret of life is?
[holds up one finger]
Curly: This.
Mitch: Your finger?
Curly: One thing. Just one thing. You stick to that and the rest don't mean shit.
Mitch: But, what is the "one thing?"
Curly: [smiles] That's what *you* have to find out.