it hurts to lose a friend

There are so few people that you connect with in life...it just hurts...it hurts to lose a friend...and it hurts not to be able to make amends...and it hurts that you were so filled with your own demons that you couldn't get past it.  If I hurt you I'm sorry...and you hurt me too...and wherever you are I really miss you....and I thank you.  

-Joan Rivers to Johnny Carson

If you are going through hell, keep going.

Thank you for putting a picture of us on your desk at work.  



Some inspirational quotes for today -


"Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about."



Watch your thoughts; they become words.

Watch your words; they become actions.

Watch your actions; they become habits.

Watch your habits; they become character.

Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

"If you are going through hell, keep going."

- Sir Winston Churchill (1874-1965)

 

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.

- Eleanor Roosevelt

 

If God answers your prayer, He is increasing your FAITH. If He delays, He is increasing your PATIENCE. If He doesn't answer, He has something BETTER for you.

If someone wants to be a part of your life they'll make an effort to be in it -  so don't bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay...


OBSTACLES ARE PUT IN OUR
WAY TO SEE IF WHAT WE WANT
IS REALLY WORTH FIGHTING FOR.


Remember:

Amateurs... Built the ark.
Professionals... Built the Titanic.


Obsessed is just a word the lazy use to describe dedicated.


Three things in life that, once gone, never come back  - Time : Words : Opportunity

Three things in life that may never be lost  - Peace : Hope : Honesty

Three things in life that are most valuable  - Love : Self-Confidence : Friends

Three things in life that are never certain - Dreams : Success : Fortune

Three things that make a person - Hard work : Sincerity : Commitments

Three things in life that can destroy a person  - Alcohol : Pride : Anger

Three things in life that, once lost, hard to build-up  - Respect : Trust : Friends

Three things in life that never fail  - True Love : Determination : Belief

I Was Wrong

This morning was another stinger.   I know that I am still going to have those for a while.   Things trigger it.   I remember that last time I was in this bed, you were with me.   I miss that support.   All I want is to give it back.   To hold you every day.   To protect you from the world.  
I will continue to accept that there is a plan, even if you are not a part of it. 
I wish I was on this walk earlier in my life.   What could have been.   But just look forward now.   The future is what matters. 

SOCIAL DISTORTION

"I Was Wrong"

 

Oh, when I was young
I was so full of fear
I hid behind anger, held back the tears
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
But the world fought back, punished me for my sins
I felt so alone
So insecure
I blamed you instead, made sure I was heard
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I wouldn't hear what they had to say
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong

And I think about my loves
Well, I've had a few
Well, I'm sorry that I hurt them
Did I hurt you too?
I took what I wanted
Put my heart on the shelf
But how can you love when you don't love yourself?
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
The world fought back, punished me for my sins
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I couldn't hear what they had to say

I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong
I was wrong, yeah
I was wrong

I grew up fast
And I grew up hard
Something was wrong from the very start
I was fighting everybody
I was fighting everything
But the only one that I hurt was me
I got society's blood running down my face
Somebody help me get outta this place
How could someones bad luck last so long?
Until I realized that I was wrong

I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
The only moment that I was me
I was wrong