for not going that route.

I was told today to give myself a pat on the back.   Despite all that has happened.   I could have went down the wrong path when I lost you.   But I was told today to give myself credit for not going that route.   I have changed and for the better.   I did not turn to any negative vices, like drugs or alcohol.  I have eliminated my negative habits that were affecting my relationships.   I have turned to God for guidance.   And every day has been better than the last. 
So here is my pat on the back.   As uncomfortable as it feels, since I still do not have everything I want.