They keep telling me that I cant blame myself for things not working out. Things were not meant to be. I cant accept that. I know that my fears are what ruined things. I should have moved things along sooner. I should have proposed. I should have told you about things that were bothering me.
I get that everyone has my back. Good friends, good family, good therapists. Things that are meant to be will be and that obviously wasn't it. I know my future is in God's hands.
Its hard to move on to new things when I still wish your stuff is in my closet. But new targets are coming. And that space will be filled. My life is in order now more than better before. And I know what I want. Its my time now. I'm ready to be married. I'm no longer scared at all. Fear has been taken from me. Later than I wanted but things are timed according to plan.
I know now that love is all that matters in this life.
So I'm looking up but your burning out.
My heart cant stand how we turned out.
Hi Germany.
